Growth Factor

With trying to get back into the swing of life in general, I can honestly say I have never been busier in my entire life and I don't plan on slowing down anytime soon! Uprooting and moving your entire family is such a huge shift in anyone's life and I am glad that we are all better for it. I am definitely not a stranger to moving, growing up, we moved from New Jersey to Ohio, from Ohio to Kentucky and many local moves in between. I guess it's just different when you're not the child anymore but instead you have a child to consider! Big love to my mom for moving so many times with the three of us!
Now that I'm here, I am able to have spurts of reflection and I cannot help but think about what was going on this time last year and to say so much has changed would be an understatement! I was able to solidify some really important relationships, but also learn that not everyone is meant to come along for the ride and that doesn't have to entail hard feelings. The transition from childhood to adulthood is so scathing; for a while the only thing you are responsible for is making it to class on time, or finishing a three to five page essay on a book, then all of the sudden you're thrown into the real world and have to use your "know how" or lack there of to make crucial decisions that will affect your whole life. In the midst of all of that transitioning, I am convinced that there is so much emotional growth that is stunted that many people never learn to step out of their egocentricity. I used to have zero tolerance for that, but now I am trying to be more understanding and patient with those individuals, and there are times when that patience I speak of I have to exhibit to myself.
It is so refreshing to be able to step outside of myself not only for a short period of time, but long enough to progress in so many areas of my life that it in turn automatically changes me for the better.
Self improvement is a very important part of ones individual growth, but I think sometimes we focus so hard on it that it automatically shuts people down and shuts people out. I do agree that reevaluating relationships, friendships, associates or what have you periodically is very important, but there is no need to continually walk around trying to convince people of something that they are not going to care about as much as you! There is a much bigger picture out there, and the sooner we are able to become more selfless, the better. I'm learning everyday to concentrate on the gifts and tasks that God has paved for me to complete and I will grow and better from it beyond my control. Because when I'm in control progress is gradual, but when God is in control, it is undeniably exponential. Until next time (soon). God is love.